Haiz...I receive comment that I have put on weight. Which means...I am fat!!!
Knock mi out cold...10 days would be ideal. Being knock out cold prevents you from eating and not eating = lose weight. Maybe 20 days would be better. Prevent mi from eating junk food, stop mi from fast food and best of all...stop mi from eating. Putting mi in a 20 days coma won't be a bad idea.
Anyway any kind soul out there? Sponsor mi...Xando Replacement meal? Or is there a better idea. Blah...crapping here. It is just a post full of nonsense.
Tummy Flat anyone?
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/31/2007 01:30:00 AM
10/31/2007 01:30:00 AM
Snapshot Report
Worry about Judgment of Others
83/100
When you experience a setback or problem in your life, one of the first things on your mind is what other people will think. You may believe that others take pleasure in your problems, that they feel sorry for you, or that they are otherwise judgmental of you. Unfortunately, this attitude can lead you to feel worse about your problems than you need to. It also means that you may be less likely to seek comfort from others when you are in emotional pain.
Damn man...I didnt noe that my depression test gave mi such an lousy results!!! Well nvm...test are accurately sometimes and are inaccurate sometimes. Is this accurate? I dunoe. Maybe there is an element of truth in there. Tsk Tsk.
Anyway dun try to be god when u ain't god. I tried finishing my e-learning in one day but ended up I failed. I only manage to finish FM yesterday. I tried to complete all again today but as usual I failed. Still have SM and BLAW left to complete. Sad case. Haiz...who ask mi to try and play god and try to complete all things in a day?
Surely there is a reason as to why the school gave us 5 days of e-learning. That is to spread out the work over five days to complete it. I ain't god and I surely need to spread out the work though.
So that means we must do things S-L-O-W-L-Y!!!
S-L-O-W-L-Y!!!
and
S-L-O-W-L-Y!!!
No point in rushing things when you know that it won't work out right. Doing things in a rush might even make thing worse. Maybe we shouldn't be so impatient. Slow things down and things might actually work out better.
Argh...MST is next week too. Bad news. No motivation. Dunoe how to start studying when I dun wanna start studying. Well somebody give mi motivation!!!
Never mind. It isn't the first time motivation has flown away from mi. As a matter of fact, it has flown away from mi since long ago and he still dun wanna fly back to papa. Bad boy.
Anyway I don't think I succeed. Try again then.
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/31/2007 12:37:00 AM
10/31/2007 12:37:00 AM
I shouldn't need hint.
I should follow my guts and just do it.
I should just try it.
Even if it failed, at least I tried before right?
At least there would be no regrets!!!
Cause I tried!!!
=)
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/30/2007 01:34:00 AM
10/30/2007 01:34:00 AM
Rain Fall, Thunder Roar, and the Wind Blow
I saw the rain fall heavily, I hear the thunder roar with much power and I feel the wind blow past mi.
It was mi, I and myself.
MST week is stressing mi but still the motivation to start revision is not there. I don't know. Anyway it will all end soon. Just close your eye and time will flash past.
It is all the same as all MST and e-learning week combination. Do e-learning assignment, start revision at only the very last moment and sit for the test. Actually it is boring to say the least. Especially when you are chain to the house with nothing to do.
Never mind...the time will past, things will get better, and things will be sorted out one way or another. The time will come when the end will come.
One fine day I will.
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/29/2007 12:34:00 AM
10/29/2007 12:34:00 AM
Why do people like to think so much? I tend to think too much about things and somehow one way or another, I tend to misinterpret what was actually meant when some things are being relayed to mi.
I thinked too much in the past. I misinterpret the message that was told in the past. It led mi to nothing except much anguish. It led mi to a cloud of uncertainty. I was confuse by the misinterpretation and by reality. When reality hits and I realise that I misinterpret the situation, it can be heartbreaking.
Over the past few weeks I think too much again. Are they droping hints or are they just jokeing around when they said those things. I don't know. I hope they were hints. But I fear. Fear that I misinterpret the intended message again. Fear that it was just a joke by them. Fear that it is only a one-sided thinking.
Now I think again. Is that the intended message that was given to mi. Did it end up in this way because I didn't take the message seriously? But is the message really a hint that I was looking for, or is it just another misinterpretation of my.
Thinking too much is not a good thing. It leads to a misinterpretation of the situation that you are really in. But if I choose not to think so much, I might really miss out on the message that was being conveyed to mi.
I fear. I fear the misinterpretation that often led mi to anguish. But what can I do? Do I continue to wait for a clearer hint or do I proceed on with what I intended to do. What should I do now?
I am confuse!!!
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/28/2007 02:23:00 AM
10/28/2007 02:23:00 AM
"Rendition"...lousy movie. Maybe it is not lousy. It's boring to the max. Not worth the $9.50 that I paid yesterday evening to watch this stupid movie.
Nothing to watch out for in the movie. Torture, Toture and Toture. Beating up of convict, dunking of water into his mouth, electrocution. I guess the only thing that is "exciting" about this movie is the torturing of the convict. Even so, the torturing process is also boring. Nothing interesting about the process.
Actually "Rendition" is a movie about terrorism. I thought it is a love movie when I saw the poster. "What will you do if you find your love one lost". This gave mi the impression so. Now I noe what is a movie review for...it tells you what a movie is about and prevent you from wasting money on the wrong movie.
Even so, it is a boring movie with an touching ending...especially when the man finally saw his wife and kid after so long.
I almost fell asleep during the movie. Imagine paying $9.50 to sleep at the movies cause it is boring. It is laughable. Well it's my fault for picking any movie just so that I can waste my time away. I should have wait 10 more minutes for the other one...that may be nicer.
Went ColdStorage to buy some things after that. Queue up at the "Express-Counter" without realising it. Didn't know that and didn't know I can only pay by cash. No cash on mi. Ran out to ATM. Take cash. Pay $$$. Should I say it is embarassing? I don't know. I didn't feel that way then and there.
Anyway e-learning is here. A week for sleeping through the morning and spending the nite in front of the com. Learning for MST week? That can wait especially when there is no motivation to start. It has always been the case since Year 2 started. What to do? Nothing. Motivation is something that you can only crave for and not create.
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/27/2007 01:43:00 PM
10/27/2007 01:43:00 PM
Lousy retailer with lousy attitude with lousy shop. Jun Biao sort of kena con by the shop there. His da ge gave him a game as his birthday present but the CD-key was errored and he went there to change as what any normal sane ppl would. They didn't and push all the blame to supplier and ask him to deal with them. Lousy customers service...it should be closed down. And it is his birthday present by his da ge somemore!!! Sad case.
Anyway went Clementi with Jose after that. The satay there was great. Try it. It has been on the newspaper and television. Bryan Wong and Calvin Soh recommended that store ya...they sell ba gua too. Odd pricing too...33 cents for one satay...never mind...at least its cheaper than the rest and the taste is not bad too.
Anyway e-learning next week.
Advantage: Sleep Late, Wake Late and well...rest
Disadvantage: e-learning assignment, study for MST when there is no motivation to even start, alone at home
Sad case down here too...hate have no choice but to "Love" it. MST after e-learning week. Prediction of the week: GPA committing sucide followed up by mi...maybe not...I am sane. No need to do that for only a GPA.
I wanna sleep but I dun wanna sleep. There is always a reason for everything done right? Thats why everyone do things in the first place...they have a reason too.
BLAW tutorial first thing in the morning. Boring. Sad case. I dunoe how to answer qns. Dead. BLAW paper during MST...I suppose they wont stay alive...dead. PSCM...also dead. FM...dependable on CPR skills of my. ECM...supposingly should stay alive if not ...dead.
Well well well...never mind. There is no use to fret so much over tests especially when I can't even get my ass of to start revising. Studying sucks.
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/26/2007 01:39:00 AM
10/26/2007 01:39:00 AM
~~~injured little toe~~~
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/25/2007 02:34:00 AM
10/25/2007 02:34:00 AM
Finally I completed my SM report offically. No pictures, not much content, crappy report...whatever. I hate report. Report hates mi and I hate them as much as they do. Hope that I can do well though...considering the fact that none of use had taken any idiotic pictures to pump the pages or beautify it, maybe it's hard to do well...add to the fact that not much on-site research was really done...except for shopping there though.
So now should I murder the SM lecturer or should I murder myself!!! Wait!!! No!!! The report is completed so what for? So what is the next report due? Now thats the real qns. Should I murder the next module report lecturer or should I just murder myself to avoid doing it. Or the real question should be: What am I even doing in school in the first place? I dun like studying, Business Admin is not what I like to study and it sure ain't the module that will make one queue up like they do at donut factory.
Anyway habits really do die hard. I know that I will definately need to go to the toilet if I were to purchase a drink before entering the cinema for the movie. If I didn't buy then I wont need to go. But still I did and I ended up holding my bladder for the best part of the 105 minutes of the movie.
Lousy atmosphere in the movies with Ah Pehs filling the cinema up instead of youthful chaps...makes the whole day down. Speaking of change, I think I need to change. My habit aside, my personality as well. No confidence in myself, Do not dare to do the thing that I really wanted to do, No courage to make my real feeling known...well is it time for a change now eh. But change is hard...thats why a leopard never change its spot...because it's hard.
I think I really need to change...before I really regret in the future. But how? I dunoe. I still have no answer. I still dunoe what am I going to do. I need an answer and I need a indication as to what I should be doing.
Nice song...part of lyrics are what I really feel. Part of it though...not all. Play it in a stand-alone player if you want.
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/25/2007 12:41:00 AM
10/25/2007 12:41:00 AM
People have said that feeling regret is an act of stupidity. I admit that I am stupid. I regreted and I regret. However I wun want to be regreting in the future...feeling regret is a bad feeling to have.
I wan an answer, I need an answer, but I dun have one. I want to know what should I do, how do I do it but I dunoe what and how to do it. Walking alone...it makes you not think about the answer, not to think about what to do, but how long can you walk alone?
I walk, I whisper in the wind, I feel the wind, I hear the wind. That didn't give mi the answer which I want, the things that I should do. I walk again...alone on the streets. At least it spare mi the few moment of clear thoughts.
One can never walk alone in their whole life. It is highly dependable on who u will walk with to end your walk in a notable high. I wun want to walk alone. It would be regretable.
However one thing is that I didn't lie. What I said in the past is true. What I had all said before in the past is true. I didn't lied. It is 100% from the heart...just that I dun dare. I swear that thats the truth and the ever-loving truth from mi.
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/24/2007 12:11:00 AM
10/24/2007 12:11:00 AM
~~~Whisper in the Wind~~~
~~~Feel the Wind~~~
~~~Hear the Wind~~~
~~~Feel the Wind~~~
~~~Hear the Wind~~~
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/24/2007 12:10:00 AM
10/24/2007 12:10:00 AM
is it going to end before it ever started
is it going to stay as my fantasy all these while
is it only going to happen only when I am being knock-out
is it going to be gone before I even catch hold of it
is it destiny that the first time will end up in disappointment
is it destiny that it never happen as it will end in disappointment
is it fear that prevent it from even starting
is it even going to start in the first place
it is true that stars shine in the dark but...
it is also true that there will always be the dark cloud that prevent stars from shining, from reaching out to those who needs it, from helping those who needs it
is it ever going to ever start
is it going to...
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/22/2007 12:12:00 AM
10/22/2007 12:12:00 AM
Seriously I hate doing projects...I hate doing reports...I hate studying!!!
Had lunch and started on my SM report.
Stare at screen, type a few sentences, lie down on bed and rest.
Stare at screen, type a few sentences, lie down on bed and rest.
Stare at screen, type a few sentences, lie down on bed and rest.
Stare at screen, type a few sentences, feel the urge, go shit.
Stare at screen, nothing to type, blog and here I am.
The sun is calling out to mi, shopping centres are chanting my name, Singapore Pools are waiting for mi. Yet here I am all alone at home trying my very best to do the report. I want to go and watch soccer with friends, I want to go shopping and I dun wanna stay at home but reality heartlessly shoot down fantasy. The sun is telling mi something...you have no life thats why u are staying at home to rot together with your laptop and reports.
Ok now let's emo together. Let's fantasize together. Let's live all together in the world of illusion...where dreams do come true!!!
Give mi a life...Wake mi up...Bring mi to life!!! Cause it's gone and not to return at the very next moment.
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/21/2007 02:57:00 PM
10/21/2007 02:57:00 PM
Went to Paridiz Centre to watch soccer with Jun Biao they all just now. First time there and wow...the place was nice man. A few big television screen with clear footballing action...better than SopCast 10 times man...haha.
And I bought a Everton win. Well first half was peaceful and Sami Hyppia scored an own-goal. I am happy and so was Jun Biao. Second half was chaos and Kyut score two hottly-disputed penalty. I am sad so was Jun Biao. Jose was happy so was Ah Yang and Chun Xian.
Thats a very sad case down there. Two hottly disputed penalty after two hottly disputed red card make my "Di Yi Ci' to Singapore Pools Headquarter to watch live soccer match goes to a losing start. It is bad to say the least. Well never mind...The Road is Long and My Heart Will Go On!!!
Ok now it is time for SM report. That is indeed a very sad case down there. I dun noe how to do it and I dun wanna do it but I still have to do it. Why? Because it is CA1. Tsk Tsk Tsk...and I badly need a sleep now...I am tired.
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/21/2007 02:13:00 AM
10/21/2007 02:13:00 AM
Finally, Finally, Finally...finally I bought myself a new shirt...haha.
Went shopping at Orchard after my Gems yesterday and what a coincidence. I saw Violet and Ivyna at the Espirt at Wisma. They were going to Taka and I was going there too...just that I was planning to walk to Taka from outside and they were planning to from the inside.
So we ended up walking together from Wisma to Taka and shop and talk around for a moment before they decided to head home. Oh btw Eric was working at the Singtel there and he msg mi saying I was shopping with two girls...haha. And for the moment that I was shopping around with Violet and Ivyna, I was given free consultation services on clothings by Violet...haha. Free lecture on clothes appreciation on the first lesson and now I noe that girls see things differently on buying clothes ya.
Talk around on different "issues" and after Ivyna bought her polo, they decided to head home. Walk to the MRT with them and they persuade mi to go home instead of shopping alone. But stuborn mi being stuborn mi, I decided on to continue to shop. And why does shopping alone means condeming myself? Maybe Violet will noe...=p
Went to look for Eric after that at Taka Singtel...haha. So long has it been since we met up that I think his voice has change and complexion better...haha. I am not gay but the change is significant especially not seeing each other for close to a year. Oh...he has grown taller it seems. Maybe taller than mi. Damn man...now my bragging right that I am taller than him is gone. The bragging right since Sec 3 that I am taller than him...tsk tsk tsk. Well it is a "Maybe" only afterall. And he still own mi my scientific calculator since O"LEVEL!!!
Deciding not to disturb him, I went on shopping and *proof*...I found a clothes that I like...hehehe. Try it on and since the sizes suits mi and I like it, payment time...hohoho. Finally I got myself a new clothes since two or three week ago when I last bought a new one.
Shop till you drop and drop till you shop! I really shop till I drop and I am a gone case after I reached home and bath and have dinner. Slept till 12 plus today...haha.
Shit...I just realise that I didnt manage to watch my last espiode of "Tian Sun Ye Ye" yesterday night. No choice...Crunchy Roll then if they have it.
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/20/2007 01:17:00 PM
10/20/2007 01:17:00 PM
Am I famous or I am famous...haha.
I saw another person copying my style by wearing the shirt that I have at home. And this is surely not the first time that it happened ya...haha. First, it was the brown Converse T-shirt. Then next was the red Rebok "Only the Strongest Survive" T-shirt. Now it is the Flesh Imp white "Machine Gun" T-shirt.
Now I cant wear the same shirt to school anymore. So how? Yupz...buy new ones...haha. Hmm...nw I must lose some weight to look better in clothes that I tried on. So how? Hmm. Well I suppose the first step in not eating maggie mee for breakfast is not bad a idea eh? And feeling bloated before the very start of the day is definately not the best way to kick-start the boring day of school...lectures and tutorial...haha.
But should I say that I am famous now or should I question the statement made...lol. And it seems that my style has reach out far and wide with people carrying the same file as mi to school ya...haha. Well the file is convenient to bring and surely it didn't have the burden of carrying a bag alongside mi ya.
Anyway walk back to Dover station from Clementi station just now to "try" to exercise after making my bet in the Singapore Pools in Clementi following some "coaching" on soccer betting at Jurong East with Jose and Co...haha.
I surely didn't realise that the distance between Clementi and Dover station was so far away. Prehaps the last time that I walk from Dover to Clementi was with Ho Seak and with company, the long distance wasn't as significant as it should be. But today I walk alone thus the difference in distance is apparent cause I am walking alone and there is no "distraction" to divert mi away from the long distance.
Oh btw I saw the girls at Clementi too. They were there for K-boxing session ya. Heard that they have fun there and it was nice to hear that...=)
They ask mi to join in too. But even though I love to sing, I still decline the offer. Why? I know that my singing sucks and I dun wanna disgrace myself infront of them ya...haha. Maybe if there is someone whose singing is lousier than my and maybe then and there...haha.
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/17/2007 08:43:00 PM
10/17/2007 08:43:00 PM
Lectures are boring...dead boring. Well well well...i rather sleep than listen to those bla bla bla hypnotising chant that SP lecturers are made famous of. That is what I am afraid of in school ya. Ended up praticing my "Oral Communication Skill" during lectures most of the time. And oh...my outdoor sleeping skill too.
Add into the equation lecturers that only noe how to talk to herself...and oh...the wall as well. What is worse is that she cannot teach. She dun noe how to teach to be more precise. Well I can surely forsee that either my GPA committ sucide first or I am gonna committ sucide myself first before seeing my soon-to-be diastraous GPA.
What have I done to get lecturers/tutor like this? Pondered much with no answer make mi wonder where did all those nice lecturers and tutors have all gone too. Now I even find that Robert is a much more better lecturer than her. Robert was a total bore but she ended up beating him to top the list of most suckist lecturer of all time.
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/16/2007 11:57:00 AM
10/16/2007 11:57:00 AM
Shopping has become stressful when you cannot buy the things that you want. Ended up meeting with Jun Biao, Ho Seak and Ah Yang first yesterday and shop around before a movie at Cine. Resident Evil: Extinction - Lousy Movie with Lousy Storyline.
Suppose to go home after that but not achieveing what I want in shopping for a new T-shirt, I decided to go to Suntec and Bugis to shop around. Too bad I didn't get what I want again.
There are alot of beautiful clothes on display but so how one that suits mi are far and afew. I saw a few that I like but in the end they dun suit mi...somehow the shirt that are on sale are never very much made for mi ya. It depressing when there is so many beautiful clothes around but there isn't one that really suits mi. They are for the hunks and for the babes.
Well maybe it is not about the clothes. Maybe I should change my statement. When you have a agenda when you are shopping, it is always depressing when you went home empty-handed because it means that you didn't get what you want.
Never mind, never mind...I will live to shop another day...so long as I am alive, I will still be able to shop for the things that I want...=)
Well, I think that maybe I needa turn fats into muscles soon. Maybe more clothes will suits mi then and there...haha. One fine day!!!
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/14/2007 12:32:00 AM
10/14/2007 12:32:00 AM
It's raining, It's raining and It's raining!!!
Yupz, I love the rain. When it rained the weather is cool, when it rain it is nice to sleep, when it rain the melody it produce is nice, when it rain the sight of rushing raindrop is nice to watch, when it rain the smell after it nice(somedays only), the feeling of rain beating on ur body is...erm...relaxing, when it rain it is romantic when you walk with your love one under it!!!
But but but...it is pathetic to emo when you walk under the rain ALONE!!! Well tats not the point...I am not about to emo or what so ever. The thing is I WANNA GO OUT TO SHOP!!! Well it is 10 plus am now and it is raining cat and dog with no sign of it stopping soon so how am I going to get out of the house!!! Plus there is no gas in the house which means NO LUNCH!!! Never mind...it will stop soon...soon...I guess. And tats when the rainbow comes out...haha. Dun worry, I still love you rain...lol.
Anyway yesterday was tiring. Went shopping with Ben after school and my~oh~my...he sure can shop ya...I was dead hungey by 6plus and there he was still full of energy shopping for clothes at Bugis!!!
Hmm...actually not. Actually there is a reason for that. He was still on holiday whereas I had school early in the morning at 9am with insufficient sleep the night before. The day started off boringly with an itimidating teacher whose pupil is smaller than her eye size(to be confirmed...haha) with a boring tutorial. These are contributing factors as to why I am tired fast ya.
Nvm today the showstopper is back ready to rumble at the shopping centres. At least I have sufficient sleep after dropping dead once I reached home yesterday and sleep through the night without realising it. I didnt realise the light wasn't off too.
Anyway lunch was nice yesterday...haha. I got a chicken that taste so much like what a fish so taste like and I nearly choke to death by my own rice...if not, I nearly get suffocated by the rice that stuck in my nostril...haha. And I realise that "Anything" is not as anything as it should sound!!!
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/13/2007 10:54:00 AM
10/13/2007 10:54:00 AM
Giddy Giddy Giddy!!!
Seriously bus rides should be left to absolute cases before embarking in a journey on them...they gave mi the headaches every now and then. Ask mi why and the reply would be a "Don't Know". Seriously I dunoe why I would get a headache some of the times when I am in a bus...especially in a one that is smelly enough to make mi puke.
Anyways tats not the impt thing!!! Impt thing is that I finally bought my shoe...hohoho!!! Went Queenways with Santono to get it. It is about time to get this thing done especially when the condition of the current one is close to one that can be found in the rubbish chute. Went there, walk around, looka looka, compare, try try and BOUGHT!!! Well I choose the design though I needa doube confirmation to make sure that I didn't choose the one that only Mi, Myself and I would find it a beauty...haha. Black & White Adidas Questra IN for $59.
Didn't buy a Nike for my third official shoe even though I like tat brand. Seriously some Nike shoes are getting uglier while Adidas shoes are getting nicer by the day. Well it use to be vice versa back then though.
Anyway break today was FUN!!! haha. Yupz...didn't had fun during long two hours break for a long time since...erm...well since the last time I had fun...haha. Yupz have lunch with the usual 3 suspects with the addition of the 4 girls. Usual lunch at FoodCourt 4 followed up by a two hour session of fooling and crapping around with games played without knowing that time had pass by so quickly. One would never have thought that two hours had gone by so quickly in the midst of the fun that all of us were engage in. Yupz...we had fun.
Well fun time are always so short. Had to drag my feet back for BLAW lecture though...it was a complete bore that I wanted to sleep in the lecture theatre...to bad I always had the difficulty of falling asleep in places other than my bed. With the right combination of people and activity, long breaks can be pass away quite fast with fun and laughter slash in between them.
But seriously, you would never realise that actual way to decode the game is so easy that you would have to knock yourself in the head for actually failing to decode it in a much shorter time than expected. I finally found out the truth about Black Secret.
Oh shit...I just realise that I haven done my BLAW tutorial. Well never mind since I am also too tired and lazy from the day to be able to actually touch and complete the tutorial. Speaking about BLAW, I finally realise why Qiu Li say that the BLAW tutor is scary...haha. Well, tats my perception about why she is scary and not Qiu Li ones though. It is her eyes...yupz her eyes. The BLAW tutorial have itimidating eyes and I realise it when I was observing her last friday during her lesson when I was bought to attention about her scariness...haha. Prehaps her itimidating eyes have something to do with the fact that she is a lawyer by profession. Well I dunoe but seriuosly I wun want to look her into the eye too much though.
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/11/2007 11:41:00 PM
10/11/2007 11:41:00 PM
It's Hot, It's Hot and It's Hot...haiz...it didnt rain today!!! Well I want rain rain rain!!!
At least they show mi some face during my birthday last year to make a brief cameo appearance before the start of the fireworks at fullerton hotel ya...haha. Well strange as it was, it only rain at 11plus tat day...less than an hour before my 18th birthday is over for 2006...haha. And because of that I proudly proclaim myself "Rain"...haha. Yupz...the South Korean one!!! Well you cant blame mi ya...it just suddenly rain after one whole day of no show and suddenly "proof" it rain and surely I would link it to being the fact that I am the special one and that I am "Rain" ya...haha.
Well tats lame for sure but tats what you get when 4 guys gather together to watch the fireworks!!! Sounds gay ya...haha. Well anyway why did I went back to the history book? Oh ya as I was saying...I AM HOT!!!
Ok back to topic...hmm wats the topic? Never mind. Well I still didn't went to get my new shoe. The one at the retail place sucks and dun blame mi for nt supporting the school when what I want isn't what they provide ya? One fine day I am gonna go down to queenways to get my new shoe...one fine day. At least before my current one committ sucide ya...it is severely injured nw and I worried that it may committ sucide anytime just because he can never ever recover...poor shoe...poor mi...poor pocket...it's burning again.
Tat aside, someone actually declare her love for mi...well actually it is my name that she declare her love towards...haha. "FM lecturer Dora Ho proudly declarely her love towards her student name" haha. Well sure I noe that my name is a beauty but publicly declaring it will make mi shy u noe...Kok Keong is shy yesterday u noe...haha.
Anyway since plan A dun work out at the moment, I would have to work out a plan B!!! Well unless I won the big one and plan A get revitalise again...haha. Ok now back to the drawing board. Ok maybe not so soon...I am lazy to plan things all out for the future...haha. As the saying goes "The boat will always end up straight as it reaches the dock" ya. And regarding the gf part, yupz I guess I will have to work harder ya.
Hmm...well until the next time...cya!!!
<黑暗中，星闪闪>
10/09/2007 11:57:00 PM
10/09/2007 11:57:00 PM
Rain rain rain...I love the rain, the rain loves mi, we are one big family...ahaha.
Finally it rained...cooling it was and pleasing it is. Quite a big one as a matter of fact but it was sure a nice one.
But still fantasy remains as fantasy and the reality still look as bleak as it seems like it was since long long ago. The big one has been playing merry-go-round since day one and it is still the case as it was now. Too bad the game of merry-go-round have never been won by mi and I sure don't know when will the day ever come...the day when the big one is finally won by mi.
Until the day, fantasy can still only remain as fantasy...even if the big one came calling, it might still be hard for fantasy to "upgrade" itself to being a dream. There is a fine line of difference between fantasy and dream of course. Fantasy will never happen in reality whereas dreams will become reality so long as the passion is there and effort is put in.
Too bad...fantasy is a big boo-hoo in this realistic world where accomplishment is the only piece of evidence that one have to acknowledge their presence in this world.
Well...reality seems bleak at the very moment and the future sure looks full of uncertainty too. Being unplanned make the future more uncertainty especially when graduation looms around the corner in about one and a half year. Questions will be ask as to what I have accomplish in the threes years in the polytechnic but at the moment, the progress card doesn't seems quite the one that I had in my fantasy.
Girlfriend: No
Fantastic Grade: No
Passion for Studying: No
Plan for Post-Graduation: None
It sure ain't a nice progress report for the moment though. Fear is the word to be use...especially the only plan that I had made for my future is based on the fantasy that I always had on my mind...the fantasy that might never even progress to being a dream let alone to be fufill in reality.
If only one could live in their world of fantasy then how nice would it be...everybody would be happy as they can be who they want to be and what they want to be. Not to mention being together with the other half that they really want to be with.
Well...it seems to mi like I always like to fantasize into being into the world that I wanted it to be.
Reality check: Fantasy Bubble Bust!!!
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10/09/2007 01:11:00 AM
10/09/2007 01:11:00 AM
Haha...what a day today...or rather yesterday since it is over 12...haha.
Free "Dou Fu" to eat...haha. Well it is not the "Dou Fu" that you are thinking off but rather some other "Dou Fu"...lol.
Anyway shopping is fun...I love to shop...shop shop shop!!! Spending money is always fun...shop till you drop and drop till you shop!!!
Well seriously...please rain money!!! I need them much...lol. Speaking of rain, when is it going to start raining...like say a tiny winnie bit of raindrop?
The weather is hot hot hot and still very hot(I noe I am hot too) and I cannot spend a day without sweating like there is no tomorrow...even the air-con in the shoppin centre is rendered useless...well who ask mi to be so hot...lol.
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10/07/2007 02:23:00 AM
10/07/2007 02:23:00 AM
Hoho...guess what people...I saw Singapore most important APNN today!!!
Well tats right, I saw the president of Singapore, Mr S.R. Nathan today. I was on the second tier of bus 197 to parkway from bugis when I saw traffic police at Kallang stopping the traffic for a white car with number plate "SEP1" and I saw Nathan inside when the car passes by...haha.
First time that I saw that the Singapore president travelling in Singapore and he actually need two traffic police bike and a police car to travel alongside his private car which of course include a bodyguard and a "cai ke fu si ji"...haha. Well tats power for you. Full time protection by the states policeman with no string attach. Well he is the most important APNN in Singapore afterall. Maybe it will be mi the next time...haha.
Actually I suspect that "SEP1" means "Singapore Elected President 1". Well it have not much of a bearing on mi unless I decide to decode it and use the number to buy 4D...haha. Maybe if I decide to decode it and the number strike first prize, I will vote for him to continue as president of the Republic in the next election...haha. Maybe I think too much...he might have already retire by then when I would be eligible to vote for the president...haha.
Until then...cya!!!
Happiness come as she wishes and go when she wants. Stay happy when you are feeling happy as you will never know when you will be feeling down!!! Cheers...=)
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10/05/2007 11:46:00 PM
10/05/2007 11:46:00 PM