A big fat orange letter appear once the door is opened. I knew what was coming. Never did I thought that it would be so early. June 11, 2009. Prehaps I wasn't totally mentally prepared. September? Prehaps prepared. Nov? Late but should be prepared.
Mindef certainly like to give mi late surprise when all gotta the letter much earlier. Enlistment then and there. It is certainly bloody depressing. Not so of the training I guess, it's the freedom lost. Freedom matters the most and once its gone, no way am I gonna imagine what I would do.
Seriously, the date has taken mi aback. Certainly it has destroyed the things that I plan to do. Prehaps, I will not succeed with or without the letter. A hugh obstacle has appeared. One that I never thought it would be. The obstacle has been increasing its influencial power so much so that well, I don't think anything gonna happen even if the letter didn't came.
Actually, do you think that I am wrong? Seriously am I wrong in the first place? Prehaps it is utterly wrong in the eyes of others. A wrong move to take. But, to mi, prehaps thats the best move at that point of time.
In life, things are never fair. Sometimes I wonder, what's the point of being a good person when all the rich and riches are those that do things the unlegal way. What's the point of being a nice man when it doesn't matter after all. In the end, I ain't gonna end up with the things that I want.
If it is meant to be, it is meant to be. But, if it isn't meant to be, then what's gonna be next?
Have anyone ever wonder, if doing things the unlegal way brings you the things that you wanted so badly, should you be doing it? If being a bad man means getting what you want, is it worth it.
I really wonder, is being a good man, a nice person really worth it? Especially when what you get isn't what you really deserve cause you know you deserve much more better than what you are getting now.
In television drama, those bad guy often has a righteous past. They live through it, ended up with nothing and proof, once they change, they made it big.
Is this really the case in real life? Being a nice person never gonna always let u get what you deserve. Sometimes, the one that live to an ripeful age is the bad guy.
Is this really so?
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4/25/2009 01:22:00 AM
4/25/2009 01:22:00 AM